return.

07/09/11

Weird. I actually planned to return to blogging when she leaves and go back.
Naww. It doesnt make much difference now.
Besides, I dont have my diary with me right now, and this blog is dead as ever.
So yeah, sorry blog, that I have neglected you for so long.
I had tons to write, tons of memories to keep etched here, but I guess its better not to anyway.
Since I kinda lose the strawberry milkshake feelings I used to have.
mm hmm.
:)


period.

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