DOLCE VITA : THE SWEET LIFE

05/6/2014 I'm sitting on the sofa, procrastinating while acting really busy on my laptop switching from this social window to that. 2.20 a.m., I should be well in bed going into my first/second phase of sleep. If Mom was still in KL i'd probably be catching the rest of my drama that I kept on pause on the player. I just had this sudden whim to write about the past few days and nights, how I sort of painstakingly(?) went through them. But then, I've had some alcohol earlier on and I just feel so, so lazy to type it out. (excuses!) Let's just say that I didn't have to endure everything in such a harsh way (but I did), didn't have to quickly replenish my emotions to the brim in three days over and over (yet I did), didn't have to tell myself not to have high expectations and yet secretly hoped (still I did). What, yeah contradicting myself and putting many, many things that seem unrelated together and then turn on the water faucet and allow my salty

03/03/2014 Sometimes all you need is an escape. A temporary one that could give you shelter and solace. When you run, you'd never know where you'd hide. You'll have a sixth sense that tells you it is safe. The best way to describe it is that it is a place where you can see them, but they can't. For all you know; it might be some spot that isn't that hidden at all. I just want to be alone somewhere. Somewhere I can hide and bury myself for a while. A teeny tiny moment, that is all I am asking for. Even if you see me, just let me be. For when I'm done, I promise I would emerge from this cloud. This thick, foggy sky that is encompassing me right now. Because I feel safe even when I seem lost. It is just me and myself. Just for now. I know it will consume and suffocate me if I remain for long. Do not worry, just give me a little while more. period.