Recap 2011.
10:19 PM
01/01/2012
2011 was a year i cannot describe.
A year that has became a platform to so many things.
A year I started off counting down in a bar.
A year where I learnt to work and earn and communicate heartily with customers.
A year where I went back to my hometown after 10 years, and very unfilial, as it was for a funeral.
A year where I see my biological dad after 10 years, and tore down the protective walls I built over the years.
A year where I went back to my hometown after 10 years, and very unfilial, as it was for a funeral.
A year where I see my biological dad after 10 years, and tore down the protective walls I built over the years.
A year where we spent CNY so differently because of the family politics that divided them all.
A year where I got my driving license after a double test. :)
A year where I had an unofficially unofficial status.
A year where I enrolled into St. Michael's Institution as a sixth former.
A year where I ironically joined the prefectorial board.
A year where I was a candidate for the top six exco members.
A year where I had an unofficially unofficial status.
A year where I enrolled into St. Michael's Institution as a sixth former.
A year where I ironically joined the prefectorial board.
A year where I was a candidate for the top six exco members.
A year where I had an unofficially official status.
A year where I had a short-lived officially official status.
A year where I learnt that things can just dont work out.
A year where I was elected as the Treasurer for the board.
A year where I felt my life was a drama, and felt the sharp jab in my heart, physically.
A year where I learnt that nothing is impossible.
A year where I learnt how to weigh two issues, and the importance of it.
A year where I knew there were so many others out there posting hearts for me.
A year where I felt downtrodden in the gutter for exams.
A year where I felt helpless in being an exco and a comm. advisor for my juniors.
A year where I felt grateful to be who i am.
A year where I fathomed the meaning of being a La Sallian, and to dedicate my life to the last, the lost, and the least along the way.
A year where I had a short-lived officially official status.
A year where I learnt that things can just dont work out.
A year where I was elected as the Treasurer for the board.
A year where I felt my life was a drama, and felt the sharp jab in my heart, physically.
A year where I learnt that nothing is impossible.
A year where I learnt how to weigh two issues, and the importance of it.
A year where I knew there were so many others out there posting hearts for me.
A year where I felt downtrodden in the gutter for exams.
A year where I felt helpless in being an exco and a comm. advisor for my juniors.
A year where I felt grateful to be who i am.
A year where I fathomed the meaning of being a La Sallian, and to dedicate my life to the last, the lost, and the least along the way.
A year where I gained more than i lost.
A year i went through that moulded me into the better me.
A year i went through that moulded me into the better me.
A me that has went through one more year of experience with a sweet, sour, salty and bitter pallet.
A not-so-mahtava-yet-still-mahtavaly-mahtava 2011.
Blessed to still be here on 01/01/2012.
And vow to try to focus on the big main issue this year;
and no other silly individual besides me myself.
Blessed to still be here on 01/01/2012.
And vow to try to focus on the big main issue this year;
and no other silly individual besides me myself.
It is a taboo; for real.
period.
period.
2012.
12:49 AM
01/01/2012
It just occured to me, I dont get to see people I want to see this two recent newyear's eve.
Oh well.
And HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY TO SMY SELF-ACCLAIMED HUBBY SUNGMIN OPPA.
OR 27TH CUS IN KOREA IT'S PLUS ONE.
And HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY TO SMY SELF-ACCLAIMED HUBBY SUNGMIN OPPA.
OR 27TH CUS IN KOREA IT'S PLUS ONE.
SAENGILCHUKAHAE NAEGA JJINJA NEOMU SARANGHAE! ♥
-was going through his pictures; i could always never get myself to choose one. so i'll just be done with my wishes literally.
And of course;
STPM #1; everything else #2.
Including all these ridiculous things going on in me.
Sigh. I wont let it happen. I wont. I trust myself enough. :)p/s: Dont make bullcrap resolutions; make your word your world.
period.
EXPOSURE.
9:08 PM
(06/11/2011)
The first thing Choo told me when she briefed me for this camp a few days back was;
"OK, first, bring alot alot alot alot alot of dry food."
*jawdropstotheground*
thehell?
"OK, first, bring alot alot alot alot alot of dry food."
*jawdropstotheground*
thehell?
Started our journey at around 9.30am with all 10 of us, except for Chiang who couldnt make it last-minute.
holding the 'au naturel' mosquito repelling plant.
Drove all the way there and meet up with Pastor Jack before entering the settlement.
Gees, we were wishing we had a Pajero like him.
I mean cmon, pity Shassi's white Viva Elite. (Was in josh's car.)
It went through much ups and downs (pun intended) after the tar road ended outside the settlement.
As if dirt road was not bad enough, there were massive potholes and what, stone covered roads in the middle of the journey.
Phewwww. Took us an half an hour till we reach the spot to cross the bridge (If you Googled, you'll know how scary it looks.) and half an hour more to reach the middle village.
Gees, we were wishing we had a Pajero like him.
I mean cmon, pity Shassi's white Viva Elite. (Was in josh's car.)
It went through much ups and downs (pun intended) after the tar road ended outside the settlement.
As if dirt road was not bad enough, there were massive potholes and what, stone covered roads in the middle of the journey.
Phewwww. Took us an half an hour till we reach the spot to cross the bridge (If you Googled, you'll know how scary it looks.) and half an hour more to reach the middle village.
josh; my boss; was "AAHHH-ing"
There is three village, Kg. Atas, Kg. Tengah, and Kg. Bawah.
We met Bapak, the person in charge there, then the kids.
All the adults are out working.
All the adults are out working.
Things i noticed:
1. Wrappers of snacks strewn around.
2. Only three concrete buildings, the rest were rumah ataps.
2. Only three concrete buildings, the rest were rumah ataps.
3. They bathe, fish, and wash clothes in the waterfall. (oh the story behind the discovery HAHA)
4. The first kid i saw, MIKA, with a sarong wrapped around her head. (And i said, "I wna hug her" the very moment)
Semenyih; Yus and uhh.. :)
From left: rumah atap, church building.
We cooked pasta for lunch. The children had some.
Went to the waterfall and played.
Went back to the church building, played games, taught them origami.
AND we were spent ! pffft.
The girls decided to 'hibernate' in our building for, well, only half an hour.
Went back to the church building, played games, taught them origami.
AND we were spent ! pffft.
The girls decided to 'hibernate' in our building for, well, only half an hour.
Woke up, and haha bathed; Orang Asli style!
First time bathing and washing my face with facial wash in the waterfall. LOL :D
First time bathing and washing my face with facial wash in the waterfall. LOL :D
The water was freeeeezing cold. I had to beg the kids to stop splashing water at me when i was only half wet. Brrrrrr!
Changed into clean clothes and had dinner.
Changed into clean clothes and had dinner.
The ibu-ibus cooked a wonderful dinner meal for us.
Rice, paku ulam vege, fried salted fish, and pumpkin and long bean curry with salted fish head.
Yummmmm.
Had a chit-chat moment over dinner to understand them more; the purpose of Exposure Camp.
Rice, paku ulam vege, fried salted fish, and pumpkin and long bean curry with salted fish head.
Yummmmm.
Had a chit-chat moment over dinner to understand them more; the purpose of Exposure Camp.
frying fish.
cooking pasta.
Yus and Mika.
lower region of the waterfall.
origami session!
Then went for our group discussion.
And apparently we had to leave.
There was this man, reputed to be a trouble-maker, and had conflicts with the villagers.
He said we did not get approval from god-knows-who and yadda yadda yadda.
Andddd he is a bomoh. :)
So we chose to leave, to save the villagers from trouble and future conflicts.
They were so sorry that we had to leave.
There was this man, reputed to be a trouble-maker, and had conflicts with the villagers.
He said we did not get approval from god-knows-who and yadda yadda yadda.
Andddd he is a bomoh. :)
So we chose to leave, to save the villagers from trouble and future conflicts.
They were so sorry that we had to leave.
It's not your fault :)
And at least we did garner alot from them in just one day.
Well less than a day actually.
We left at 7pm.
And at least we did garner alot from them in just one day.
Well less than a day actually.
We left at 7pm.
the way back at night.
p/s: Mika is the bomoh's grandcousin's daughter LOL
period. :)
Be the 10%.
8:45 PM
(24/11/2011)
"I dont hope for all of you to change after what i said, but i only hope for 10% of all fo you guys here to really get and practice what we've learned today. And 10% is only 7 out of 74 of you all here."
It was actually, heart breaking.
To know how some actually thought that LTC was, in fact, a pure waste of time.
And all this and all that.
Sigh. But then i remembered what Mr. Palan said.
And i thought to myself,
Sigh. But then i remembered what Mr. Palan said.
And i thought to myself,
Why focus on that 1% or 10% of them who didnt appreciate LTC,
instead of the huge 99% or 90% prefects who had a great time, and actually comprehended the message behind LTC?
Whatever it was, at least i knew those who really cared for this big, big family and actually is part of the family, and even some coming from the ones i least expected.
instead of the huge 99% or 90% prefects who had a great time, and actually comprehended the message behind LTC?
Whatever it was, at least i knew those who really cared for this big, big family and actually is part of the family, and even some coming from the ones i least expected.
In fact, i began to realise, the board is actually a tiny replica of how the corporations of the outside world is.
How there will always be setbacks, opponents, failure.
But also how there is the spirit, the work, and the sweet success.
How there will always be setbacks, opponents, failure.
But also how there is the spirit, the work, and the sweet success.
Think all you want that im talking bullshit,
but for me, and for some, they'll know what im talking about.
Dont ask me why i cried, i just did.
Out of comprehension, out of commitment.
Out of comprehension, out of commitment.
And it is something i hope this big, big family would understand for themselves.
From being a prefect for name, fame, and game;
to an exco for change, commitment, and care.
to an exco for change, commitment, and care.
period.
Living Our Legacy (LOL).
6:29 PM
(23/11/2011)
LTC.
it wasnt the best, it wasnt perfect, it had flaws, it had mistakes, it has its share of ups and downs,
but i still thank God that there was definitely an outcome.
DAY 1.
getting screwed by the end of the day wasnt the best thing that could happen,
especially when it is something that concerns our responsibility and credibility.
it wasnt the best, it wasnt perfect, it had flaws, it had mistakes, it has its share of ups and downs,
but i still thank God that there was definitely an outcome.
DAY 1.
getting screwed by the end of the day wasnt the best thing that could happen,
especially when it is something that concerns our responsibility and credibility.
getting the screwing in a way that wasnt so like-able or acceptable by everyone is making things even worser.
and FINALLY getting the screwing when the problem has been there all the while,
i actually think that well, yeah, at least it's being brought up, although in such a way.
and FINALLY getting the screwing when the problem has been there all the while,
i actually think that well, yeah, at least it's being brought up, although in such a way.
but it has to, like sooner or later. and it finally did.
and heck, my first breakdown for prefectorial board.
and heck, my first breakdown for prefectorial board.
sighs.
Day 2.
pretty tensed up when the Big Boss is around.
but yeah, just chill down and absorb what today's speaker, Mr. Palan, has to say.
The moment he said, "Begin with an end in mind", im like "HEY!".
but yeah, just chill down and absorb what today's speaker, Mr. Palan, has to say.
The moment he said, "Begin with an end in mind", im like "HEY!".
My brother told me the exact thing. The famous idea from someone's best-seller.
Mahtava.
Day 3.
Revealed the Guardian Angels and their respective mortal. Hahaha.
Some werent to happy with their GA's inactiveness :D
Mahtava.
Day 3.
Revealed the Guardian Angels and their respective mortal. Hahaha.
Some werent to happy with their GA's inactiveness :D
Had the Reflection session, thanks so much to the boss, I was near to the point of crying.
Looked up, saw jialoon's red face and teared eyes. Damnthankssomuch.
I looked back down almost immediately.
The boss then had to just add in another word of lesson for us: Care.
I looked back down almost immediately.
The boss then had to just add in another word of lesson for us: Care.
Bloodyhell. $#@*%^#! *cries.*
Then the Big Boss took over and talked, softer tones this time.
Sigh. Well well.
Im spent and drained in LTC, but for a good cause.
Then the Big Boss took over and talked, softer tones this time.
Sigh. Well well.
Im spent and drained in LTC, but for a good cause.
Some fella actually came to me and said, "Were you sleeping when Mr. Potassium was talking?"
GG.com
GG.com
LTC commitee.
St.Michael's Institution Prefectorial Board 2011/2012.
Change, commitment, care.
Signum fidei. sign of faith.
period.
eh?
12:04 PM
(01/11/2011)Left my Halloween post at an "unfinished" status.
i forgot what i else i was gonna write. it's okay.
it's just the same for every other posts,
when the mind gets so active at night and starts constructing line after line,
i forgot what i else i was gonna write. it's okay.
it's just the same for every other posts,
when the mind gets so active at night and starts constructing line after line,
when the frustration, the hyperness gets hijacked and bubbled wayyyy up,
AND i dont type it in my draft,
i just forget everything the next day.
It's good in a way i guess, you dont keep the vengeance or the grudge or whatever thats bugging you overnight. Nice.
AND i dont type it in my draft,
i just forget everything the next day.
It's good in a way i guess, you dont keep the vengeance or the grudge or whatever thats bugging you overnight. Nice.
period.
pfft.
1:12 AM
(01/11/2011)
When they say that we know whats best for ourselves, they werent kidding.
When a menopausal woman comes into conflict with a pms lady,
the former will keep talking shiz and the latter will either talk back,
or she'll walk away while mimicking the other's talking-shiz-mode face.
*and lots of rolled eyes thrown in, no doubt.
Females.
*shrugs.
Best not to ignite them atm, fellas.
period.
halloween.
5:46 PM
(31/10/11)
-Halloween.
In the very beginning, there was still worry.
Worry that it would break someone, worry about the blow it'll impact on the individual.
Ironically, i remember it was the birthday, and also the day the one i was waiting for is coming home.
Ironically, i remember it was the birthday, and also the day the one i was waiting for is coming home.
The very same day, when i decide to make clear cut with my decision.
In fact, i realized that the decision has been made long ago.
Looking back, it was obvious.
The only thing that kept me from realizing was myself, for i wished of nothing but the best for other people.
For them to be not upset by me.
She was right, it is always others before myself.
Them before me.
I wonder if there ever will be a day when i would be thoroughly selfish, or maybe just really love myself more than anything.
In fact, i realized that the decision has been made long ago.
Looking back, it was obvious.
The only thing that kept me from realizing was myself, for i wished of nothing but the best for other people.
For them to be not upset by me.
She was right, it is always others before myself.
Them before me.
I wonder if there ever will be a day when i would be thoroughly selfish, or maybe just really love myself more than anything.
Just like what mum said,
"Learn to love yourself more before loving anyone else."
True. So very true.
unfinished.
period.
True. So very true.
unfinished.
period.
epiphany.
7:16 PM
19/10/2011
i really want to know what will happen if i pop a sulpiride tablet in right now.
can i wake up to go to school for chemistry?
cus i think i bloody need that tablet in me. like now.
fuck. what on earth is wrong with me.
cus i think i bloody need that tablet in me. like now.
fuck. what on earth is wrong with me.
i was never like this. i am not me anymore.
like hahaha when was the last time i truly felt happy for myself again?
months ago man.
cmon.
i never cry for exams.
i did.
i never cry to my brother.
i did.
i never want to just sleep and not care whats gonna happen tmr.
i did.
and not to mention feeling like utter bullshit waking up with half the day gone.
i did.
i never memorise biofacts like shit and still able to ask "what on earth is protein synthesis"; never occured to me that that was exactly what i was reading the whole time; and threw 15 marks away.
i did.
i could never sincerely literally seriously felt more stupid ever.
i did.
i did.
i never cry to my brother.
i did.
i never want to just sleep and not care whats gonna happen tmr.
i did.
and not to mention feeling like utter bullshit waking up with half the day gone.
i did.
i never memorise biofacts like shit and still able to ask "what on earth is protein synthesis"; never occured to me that that was exactly what i was reading the whole time; and threw 15 marks away.
i did.
i could never sincerely literally seriously felt more stupid ever.
i did.
and i really considered going back to sleep and sleep again tmr during chemistry.
if miss chemistry asks, i'll say i dont know how to do, and that i also DONT want to do.
sweet.
sweet.
well? positive side?
There's always a first for everything, no?
and how many more goddamn firsts am i gonna break this bloody year.
and how many more goddamn firsts am i gonna break this bloody year.
too much. seriously just too much.
*swallows the tablet.
there. another first gone. taking unprescribed med.
kthksnight. cb.
p/s: even if right deep down i know goddamn very well what is right and what is not,
kthksnight. cb.
p/s: even if right deep down i know goddamn very well what is right and what is not,
sometimes, just sometimes, i just want to let it all go.
immersed in
immersed in
period.
Diary. mine again.
11:52 PM
03/09/2011
"When you assume;
you make an ass out of u and me."
Dont judge that idc. Just that sometimes i think i cannot; and that it's not quite the right thing?
Oh wait, am i living for other people instead of myself again?
Oh wait, am i living for other people instead of myself again?
你写的最后那几句,不知道为什么搞到我蛮伤心的。
“你的痛是我给的承诺，如果难过，请你忘了我。”
lan literature meh. duhh. :\
旧的回忆，永远都不会忘。
不应该丢下回忆，而是带着回忆向未来走吧。
唯一能做的，就是制造一些属于我们新的回忆。
infinity is so pretty. LOL
imy.i will. <8
period.
Dream.
7:02 PM
03/09/2011
Cinderella OST:
" A dream is a wish your heart makes, when you're fast asleep. In dreams you lose your heartaches, whatever you wish for, you keep"
that is sucha lie.
This, by far, is the most utterly depressing one.
Dreaming about how almost everyone you cared about,
just died in an accident, and I survived.
Imagine being completely alone with only two friend,
just died in an accident, and I survived.
Imagine being completely alone with only two friend,
and ironically, one friend was no longer a friend;
because in that dream, it seemed like we never restored the friendship in peace.
because in that dream, it seemed like we never restored the friendship in peace.
I had a taste of how things would be, if I had not accepted things in peace;
if I chose the option of not being okay with things.
It was really horrible, that I almost woke up thinking it was all real.
Being stranded and desolated, with absolutely no one to confide to,
and the only living one is like an arch rival.
It was sad.
It was really horrible, that I almost woke up thinking it was all real.
Being stranded and desolated, with absolutely no one to confide to,
and the only living one is like an arch rival.
It was sad.
Just now, I was watering the plants, and it felt like how it was when i was ten or so,
when the only person at home is my maid.
Pretty queer feeling i'd say, it's like old times for a moment.
Sat in front of the door, and just stared out, breathing in the environment.
What have i done to myself? How have i turned myself into?
I just felt like, i wasn't quite the same me, or maybe i should just say that;
I stop living life like how i used to.
Have i really lived life for others and not myself anymore?
Pretty queer feeling i'd say, it's like old times for a moment.
Sat in front of the door, and just stared out, breathing in the environment.
What have i done to myself? How have i turned myself into?
I just felt like, i wasn't quite the same me, or maybe i should just say that;
I stop living life like how i used to.
Have i really lived life for others and not myself anymore?
Geminis; although they have the greater tendency to look at the big picture, to see both sides of an issue, to be compassionate, forgiving, and understanding;
they are still very easily agitated with a lot of inner conflicts (thanks so much to the Twins in them). One side will always probe for the answer and reason that they'll never get, and the other will always be trying to look positive in the issue. Sighs.
they are still very easily agitated with a lot of inner conflicts (thanks so much to the Twins in them). One side will always probe for the answer and reason that they'll never get, and the other will always be trying to look positive in the issue. Sighs.
whatever.
period.
theories.
11:38 PM
17/01/11 - 06/07/11
#1: cars of manual and auto; sukditsin.
#2: to always walk on the right side.
#3: yumcha/yumyeh.
#2: to always walk on the right side.
#3: yumcha/yumyeh.
#4: to love ourselves and be self-loving when there's nobody to love us.
#5: to end the topic when 'fine' is mentioned.
#5: to end the topic when 'fine' is mentioned.
#6: little girl's cupcake.
#7: sm7y, heck.
#8: equal share.
#9: no goodbyes allowed.
#10: mahtava.
#11: <9
#12: 幸福的感觉: 是当你不知不觉的笑，而且是发自内心的笑。 那就是幸福。
#13: killer smiles are not as awesome as fatthao smiles.
#14: Talk to me, even if you are not in the mood. Unless I'm the reason.
#15: dont just be ready to catch, be ready to hold on too.
#16: <8
burnt.
que seja infinito.
period.
Just like that.
10:43 PM
23/08/2011
"오래된 영화 속에 우리가 있어
그 안에 우린 너무 행복해 보여
기억도 나지 않던 낯선 곳에서
우리 추억들을 찾고 있었어
눈물이 났어 아니
눈물이 나 지금도
널 생각하면 널 보고 있으면
되감아 봐도
다시 보고 또 봐도
I miss you more and more
널 잊을 수가 없어
*다신 누굴 사랑하지 않을 걸 알아
Cause I dont wanna let you go
내 기억 속에서
**내가 보는 영화 속의 주인공처럼
날 사랑하던 그 때로 돌아와줘
아무도 모르게
다시 내 곁으로
오래된 영화 속에 우리가 있어 (이제 기억이 나)
그 때 우리는 너무 어렸었지만 (다시 기억이 나)
시간은 내가 잠시 멈춘 곳에서
우리 사랑마저 멈춰 버렸어..."
2PM- Like a movie
그 안에 우린 너무 행복해 보여
기억도 나지 않던 낯선 곳에서
우리 추억들을 찾고 있었어
눈물이 났어 아니
눈물이 나 지금도
널 생각하면 널 보고 있으면
되감아 봐도
다시 보고 또 봐도
I miss you more and more
널 잊을 수가 없어
*다신 누굴 사랑하지 않을 걸 알아
Cause I dont wanna let you go
내 기억 속에서
**내가 보는 영화 속의 주인공처럼
날 사랑하던 그 때로 돌아와줘
아무도 모르게
다시 내 곁으로
오래된 영화 속에 우리가 있어 (이제 기억이 나)
그 때 우리는 너무 어렸었지만 (다시 기억이 나)
시간은 내가 잠시 멈춘 곳에서
우리 사랑마저 멈춰 버렸어..."
Just very nicely written.
period.
trash (?)
8:36 PM
21/08/2011
Choose one from the following options.
A. Gift it
B. Burn it
C. Keep it
D. Throw it
D. Throw it
and i actually settled for option D.
held on real tight, and made myself un-clench my grip on the book.
and tried very hard to not turn back and retrieve it from the bin.
held on real tight, and made myself un-clench my grip on the book.
and tried very hard to not turn back and retrieve it from the bin.
duh. 有没有搞错. ><
okay.
i. dumped. it.
well well well.
留着也没意思了吧..
but to think of the effort and heart when i wrote and printed,
hmm.
留着也没意思了吧..
but to think of the effort and heart when i wrote and printed,
hmm.
but its better to not keep it, i guess.
eeeks. like ouch.
i dont like throwing stuffs i pre-made.
i dont like throwing stuffs i pre-made.
is it really thrown and gone?
period.
jjinja.
10:11 AM
21/08/2011
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
woke up with that sentence ringing in my bloody headache.
this is insanity.
hate waking up like this.
hate waking up like this.
period.
"Some memories last forever."; The Way We Were (1973).
3:33 PM
09/08/2011
Saw this on Oprah,
will watch this soon. sigh.
Barbra Streisand's song just captivated me.
The Way We Were.
Which is also the major hit movie back then,
The Way We Were.
Which is also the major hit movie back then,
considering that they really had the 'IT' couple look.
They just match. But still ended up separately.
Sad.
They just match. But still ended up separately.
Sad.
The best epic scene:
"Katie Morosky Gardner: I don't have the right style for you do I?
Hubbell Gardner: No you don't have the right style.
Katie Morosky Gardner: I'll change.
Hubbell Gardner: No, don't change. You're your own girl, you have your own style.
Katie Morosky Gardner: But then I won't have you. Why can't I have you?
Hubbell Gardner: Because you push too hard, every damn minute. There's no time to ever relax and enjoy living. Every things too serious to be so serious.
Katie Morosky Gardner: If I push too hard it's because I want things to be better, I want us to be better, I want you to be better. Sure I make waves you have I mean you have to. And I'll keep making them till you're everything you should be and will be. You'll never find anyone as good for you as I am, to believe in you as much as I do or to love you as much.
Hubbell Gardner: I know that.
Katie Morosky Gardner: Well then why?
Hubbell Gardner: Do you think if I come back its going to be okay by magic? What's going to change? What's going to be different? We'll both be wrong, we'll both lose.
Katie Morosky Gardner: Couldn't we both win?"
Hubbell Gardner: No you don't have the right style.
Katie Morosky Gardner: I'll change.
Hubbell Gardner: No, don't change. You're your own girl, you have your own style.
Katie Morosky Gardner: But then I won't have you. Why can't I have you?
Hubbell Gardner: Because you push too hard, every damn minute. There's no time to ever relax and enjoy living. Every things too serious to be so serious.
Katie Morosky Gardner: If I push too hard it's because I want things to be better, I want us to be better, I want you to be better. Sure I make waves you have I mean you have to. And I'll keep making them till you're everything you should be and will be. You'll never find anyone as good for you as I am, to believe in you as much as I do or to love you as much.
Hubbell Gardner: I know that.
Katie Morosky Gardner: Well then why?
Hubbell Gardner: Do you think if I come back its going to be okay by magic? What's going to change? What's going to be different? We'll both be wrong, we'll both lose.
Katie Morosky Gardner: Couldn't we both win?"
will watch this soon. sigh.p/s: it's not a black and white movie. yays
period.
好了。
5:04 PM
06/08/2011我不惹事了啦。
读书 ：）
读书 ：）
and feeding my right brain with Suju's Superman.
damn jeng really.
damn jeng really.
p/s: tried uploading the vid, but there's no sound. so i deleted. :( oh well. watch here on youtube.
period.
种什么因，收什么果。
11:43 PM
05/08/2011对我十位老公们和课本好; 好过对别人好。
谁知道他们对你又说又笑的时候，头脑里面到底在说些什么鬼话，在你背后又说些有的没的。
先想想自己到底是对或错吧。唉。
心淡？ 才不会再那么笨，浪费力气。
或许只样也好，我干嘛要做那么多。
或许只样也好，我干嘛要做那么多。
好多人都说我不需要那么好，最多不就一拍两散。
付出了，牺牲了，可是我怎么觉得有时候她好像当做是应该的呢？
经历这一切，就只不过是为了以后大家能好好相处。
做人不要太过分。语气也应该客气一些好不好。
原来你也会感觉到生气，也会不爽。
付出了，牺牲了，可是我怎么觉得有时候她好像当做是应该的呢？
经历这一切，就只不过是为了以后大家能好好相处。
做人不要太过分。语气也应该客气一些好不好。
原来你也会感觉到生气，也会不爽。
让你感受一下那种滋味也好。
这样你或许能感觉到我那个时后的心情，
唯一不同的地方，就是你跟他已经不在一起了。
有时候，真的搞不懂你在想什么。
到底还值得吗。
还重要吗？
不知道。
P/S: 还有， 如果你有在读， 请你不要去当人家的翻译者。谢了。
period.
speechless.
7:58 PM
05/08/2011心機很重。
看得出。
看得出。
tsktsktsk
无话可说。
period.
sigh :')
11:52 AM
31/07/2011
V: 'There's a fine line between being stupid and being generous.'
S: 'Am I stupid?'
S: 'Am I stupid?'
V: '*shakes head* You're strong, really, cus you have to face it everyday.'
S: '*asmilethatdidn'tquitereachmyeyes* Life.'
Life goes on without waiting..
So why should we all wait for people who's not waiting for us.
Kept repeating,
S: '*asmilethatdidn'tquitereachmyeyes* Life.'
Life goes on without waiting..
So why should we all wait for people who's not waiting for us.
Kept repeating,
看得开就好。看得开就好。
There, just nice.
And, well, today..
Today. has. a. nice. date.
Topped everything I had..
Sighs.
There, just nice.
And, well, today..
Today. has. a. nice. date.
Topped everything I had..
Sighs.
p/s: But honestly, it wasn't that bad really. good job :Dperiod.
dolce vita : the sweet life
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