Lose touch.

(11/04/2012)

It, is getting bad.
The sudden outburst, I was scared of it myself.
The thought of how i just lose my grip on self control,
I was freaked out myself.
didireallyjustdothat? *shutsmyeyes*
The good thing?
At least I am aware of it.
It is getting worse.
Get a grip, and
count my own heartbeats.
one, two, three.

period.

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