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21/08/2011

"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"
"为什么你要这样对我?"

woke up with that sentence ringing in my bloody headache.
this is insanity.
hate waking up like this.




period.

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