DOLCE VITA : THE SWEET LIFE

14/07/11 : before bedtime. I'm telling you. shinweitan is just about the most peculiar thing you'll ever know. My moodswings are like ... I wonder if I'm feeling nice now. Just cus I successfully accomplished my MUET essay. heees. daebak. Keep going. and keep focused. At least for now. period.

14/07/11 Sensation to implode, need to explode. I just feel like jumping into an abyss, close my eyes, hear the wind swish through my ears, and just let go of everything that is holding me back. Ah. Wouldn't that be nice? Just nice. I wish I could break down in the shower and cry again, Let my muffled screams out of my lungs, And hold on dearly to the pieces of me that's threatening to fall apart. Ironic. I just told my friends that we can't crack. yet. And I'm on the verge of breaking into a thousand million splinters. It felt like so many had happened, where in reality, nothing has happened. Not on the exterior, and not to my eyes. Its all the behind-the-scenes, all the things you never get to see with your own eyes, or hear with your own ears. So why bother ? Well, that can't be helped. I just. want to let loose. But haha. I gotta keep myself silent. Can't afford to show it out, and I don't feel like explaining why either. Poker face mmm. Just don't s...

13/07/11 Try to, Build walls instead of bridges bridges instead of walls. period.

12/07/11 Oh, you know whats the problem with exes ? They just keep coming back for more. Some hoping to have another chance, another go at it. Some just hoping to redeem back some of their lost happiness with the one they felt contented with. But there is just one tiny thing. Some realize that an ex is an ex for a reason. And some just dont. ˢᵐᶦʳᵏˢ⋅ ᵗʰᵉˢᵉ ʷᵒʳᵈˢ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᵇᵉᵉᶰ ʳᵘᶰᶰᶦᶰᵍ ᵗʰʳᵒᵘᵍʰ ᵐʸ ᵐᶦᶰᵈ ᵗʰᵉ ʷʰᵒᶫᵉ ᵈᵃʸ⋅ period.

12/07/11 oreo cheesecakeballs. ha-ha. period.

10/07/11 I wish I never asked for you to accept the request. I wish you two never met. I wish you two were never friends. I wish my birthday wasn't the reason you both have each other's number. I wish I was the one who could be there for you night after night. I wish I was the one who was available. I wish that we never have to end because till the end the feeling was not deep enough. Or, I wish I never had to exist between both of you. I hate being the karma I am implementing on myself. I hate the fact of how I am telling myself what I used to feel like telling your ex. I hate eating back my own words. That 'she is no longer yours, and I have every right to have her now.' I hate being so vulnerable for you. I hate the fact that an ex is an ex for a reason. I hate the fact that I know there is nothing, but there is definitely the feeling. I hate feeling how an ex would feel like. I hate you for falling for her. I hate you for making her the one who is replacing everythi...

07/09/11 Weird. I actually planned to return to blogging when she leaves and go back. Naww. It doesnt make much difference now. Besides, I dont have my diary with me right now, and this blog is dead as ever. So yeah, sorry blog, that I have neglected you for so long. I had tons to write, tons of memories to keep etched here, but I guess its better not to anyway. Since I kinda lose the strawberry milkshake feelings I used to have. mm hmm. :) period.